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[13 Jul 2009|05:28pm] |
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Four days after my trip I'll be homeless, lovely.
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[06 Jul 2009|09:55pm] |
I could do it I thought today, as Ben sped up to gain speed to drive on the high-way.
I could just open that door, and jump right out, and it'd all be over.
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I stared hard at the door handle.
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[20 Jun 2009|07:02pm] |
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I'm going to Evansville, Indiana from the 16-22nd of July. o-o
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[08 Jun 2009|08:42pm] |
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...Things are interesting here, I still don't have internet or a job yet, but I'm lookng and waiting for my aunt to wire the cord downstairs so I can use the internet... Wireless does not work in the basement at all. I almost enjoy being disconnected from the internet at times though.. Its freeing and I don't have to worry about stupid things or internet drama...
Theres a pregnant cat pestering me for cuddles. I shall comply.
At Ben's place for now, will go home in a few days.
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[02 Jun 2009|10:42pm] |
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I'm alive, just internetless, slighly annoyed at that. Been reading alot and taking photos.
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[14 May 2009|09:50pm] |
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I don't have internet at home yet, and this is pissing me off.
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[06 May 2009|07:56pm] |
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I'm at Ben's house. :3
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[30 Apr 2009|07:14am] |
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Good-bye Arizona.
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[29 Apr 2009|03:47am] |
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Someone completely out of the blue - told me that they respect me and care about me a lot. Almost shocked me a bit. Its weird because when I first met her I thought our worlds were soo far apart, but this wasn't the case at all, our lives are so driven by art it was almost insane to find someone as close to the same life as I.
Times like these, when I'm moving on, doing something different, changing, makes me really love life. Gives me an understanding of growth.
I'll lose some friends when I move, and I'll keep some as well, but I'll get to see some old ones, and make new ones as well.
I'm really looking forward to this next step, even if it does bring me to tears.
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[27 Apr 2009|03:33am] |
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This is a photo my sister took of her baby and my mom’s dog. Mom’s dog is over 100lbs and not fully grown btw, he’s still a pup.
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So its only a few days now now – before I leave Arizona. I’m kind of sad, yet excited to see some family and old friends. Odds are that I’ll be leaving to see Ben the day I get there, hell maybe within the hour. We still need to beat lunar 2 and I might end up moving in with him. Life is going to be interesting back home, I’m going to see Ed again, and he wants to introduce me to his cosplay group. Yeah, I might actually cosplay for once, too. I might also go to Anime boston, but I’m kind of unsure since I don’t know if I want to have too much going on right away. I might want to relax you know? I still gotta finish packing/cleaning the kitchen, and the my clothes, and finally the closest. None of which should take long, I’ll do my closest tomorrow. I’ve not been real active on mabinogi lately, I think thats just from all my stresses lately.
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[23 Apr 2009|12:23am] |
| Date | Flight | Routing Details | | Thu Apr 30 | 3578 | Depart TUCSON AZ (TUS) at 9:15 AM
Arrive in PHILADELPHIA PA (PHL) at 6:15 PM | | | 1141 | Change planes in PHILADELPHIA PA (PHL) departing at 8:20 PM
Arrive in MANCHESTER NH (MHT) at 9:45 PM |
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[15 Apr 2009|04:01am] |
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And you know, to top it all off, Kitty and rai don't even like the guild anymore, and they're thinking about quiting. Kitty doesn't even feels like she belongs anymore, like she needs anymore fucking problems right?
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God christ man,
guild drama for the lose.
Serously...
I'll full heartedly admit I was in the wrong, sure. but shit.
I barely said much at all, I was trying to explain to rain how to find information on modders and crap, and its frustating as hell, when the dude, just need all kinds of solid proof, and like detail googing instrutions. (I'm tired as hell so I have no idea if anything makes sense right now ) and I'm also getting my ass handed to me in rabbie, which just adds to the frustation. So I basically just stop talking, and ignore everything.
and I snap, and I call Rain a gay sailor, and to be honest I don't mean it, but rain is a little weird to me he's like 45, he's a sailor, and he plays as a girl while flirting with everyone. sure, yeah I'm used to him by now, but its still a little weird to me at least.
by this time with added crap throughout the day (mostly misa's fucking mouth, I hate that stupid cunt. I wish she'd just shut up and stop starting shit with everyone) I pretty much was going to quit. but I decided to give it once more shot, and I blocked about 40% of the people who piss me off.
and I told rain that I didn't mean it in IM, and he was all acting stupid thinking that I was being honest with him when I said, and such shit, he's so like... whats it called? ... dense. there it is, and his typing is hard to understand. Any way he didn't take to it and was kind of rude.
Then I'm off to do ciar with misa, and aqua, and I'm reading up on ciar beccause I like to read up on shit, and I'm idle for like 1 minute, and she makes a smart remark, and I just fucking snap and take off.
I really tired of misa's fucking mouth. Its the one thing leading me to want to quit because of that stupid goddamn cunt. if I was aqua, I'd fuckingban her in two minutes. EVen kefka hates the bitch.
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[08 Apr 2009|11:40pm] |
[23:30] SpewMuffin: John Guyardo's in the St. Joseph's hospital...
[23:30] SpewMuffin: something to do with his heart.
[23:30] x99midnight: i see.
[23:30] x99midnight: He should be okay
[23:31] SpewMuffin: Oh?
[23:31] x99midnight: -shrug- just a guess, my life is the only one that seems to be shit lately.
[23:32] SpewMuffin: Hmm...
[23:32] SpewMuffin: Such a pessimist?
[23:33] x99midnight: Well at least if he lives he'll have a home to go back to, and if he doesn't then he wont have to worry about that now will he?
[23:34] SpewMuffin: You seem very jaded lately...
[23:34] SpewMuffin: Isn't your health more important?
[23:35] x99midnight: Sure my health is important - but when I'm out of the street with nothing not even food what does it matter anyway? I can't help it. I'm so pissed off at myself and everything I've done everything I can do -EVERYTHING- within my a power, and yet I wont catch a break, Its fucking bull shit. I'm going to lose everything in my life.
[23:37] SpewMuffin: Umm... I don't know how to respond to that.
[23:37] x99midnight: Its not even the objective things, my tv, bed, wii, ps2, is all crap that means nothing to me at all, its the fact that after this month, my life IS OVER. I'll have no future no chance and a fucking thing.
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I've completely given up on the idea of any human being that of a decent kind.
I'm cutting most of my friend's list first thing in the morning, too.
Ironically - I decided that I will enroll in medical school within the next two years.
Oh well - fuck people, actually no - fuck everyone.
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[21 Mar 2009|05:00am] |
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Whoever the hell just added me to MSN, I deleted it, so readd me and state who you are. If you don't you'll be blocked with in like 3 seconds.
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[21 Mar 2009|03:43am] |
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So here's a story.
( And lets begin )
Also: Mabinogi rocks, will post screens later.
Good-night.
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To live, is to suffer.
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